The Bass Savage

seriously. I miss yo face more everyday.

May 31
you must come visit me though.

Newcastle is off. Must stay to earn some dosh for NYC. woo.

May 31
sorry kwheels.
BEANS.
May 31

BEANS.

and so I basically just want to get drunk. I would be right now if I didn’t have a flipping test tomorrow afternoon. But then. It will be time to get my drunk on and drink drink driiiink. Pretty sure the seniors are going to be brutal to poor old me. Eeeep. I will be death on Thursday. Shitballs.

May 29
Oh, yeah
Oh well hello there dearest persons. It is I, your cat lover, Ball. Not much to report on. Just that hockey is over but fear not, soccer takes the reins and it’s yet another 6.15am start in the morning to play a quick match against Women’s. Oh the joys of college sport. At least I’m keeping in shape and mixing with the other girls. I’ll admit though, was getting sick of the senior girls in hockey. Very clicky bunch. Tomorrow night should be interesting, I wonder who has to prosecute me. I have Tori and I literally have nothing on her. She hasn’t done anything! Anyway. So I was out at dinner the other night with mum at some incredible Japanese restaurant in Newtown (Hikaru) and I’m merrily, talking away with Deb when some guys walk in. Completely disregarded two of the three, one of them just caught my eye and I couldn’t help but wonder why he seemed so familiar. I clearly had never seen him/ been introduced to him before, so who on earth was he? Anyway, went home and had a quick facebook stalk, not really knowing where to begin. I knew he wasn’t a random so I tried going through Johns’men even though the other two guys weren’t from Johns. So I found a similarity but came to the conclusion that it wasn’t him because I had convinced myself that I no longer remember what this guy looked like (despite me thinking I had seen him before, there was definitely a recognition there). It was one of those moments when you just check out some guy that you think is pretty good looking and you think “ah nah, well I’ll never see him again, but he’s nice to look at anyway”. So come Wednesday, I’m out and ran into Abby and this guy… THIS GUY, suddenly appears and next thing I know, Abby introduces him to me. Carrying on, she leaves and it’s the two of us talking and I get completely nervous and back out. I had to tell her about what had happened and how much I was smitten for this guy. Completely infatuated (how he attains the nickname from Alex, Fatty). So I keep seeing him walking past the whole night and we catch each other’s eyes and it’s all well cute. I end up talking to him a couple times more but me, being too nervous and him too shy end up not doing anything. Which is nice for a change, in hindsight. Regardless, he has most definitely forgotten about me and I should do the same. Well, I sort of have. Thatwastwo weeks ago now and I am thoroughly content in my single life. I have a thousand and one other things to be worrying about than some guy who I’ll probably never see again considering I had never seen him before anyway. Though, heisa Johnnies boy so the chances are high. I keep banning myself from there though so they’re definitely slimming down. Woo message… oh. Mum. So there’s my (late) rant on Fatty. Although, I don’t think I’m all that infatuated anymore, as I said, it has been two weeks now. Hmm, I hope I make it out tomorrow night. Might bump into him at the Gross. Naht. I probably won’t even make it out. Even if I did, he might not be out and I’d be looking for him and it would only end in tears. So. Let’s say, let’s see where the night takes me! Not looking for any hookups, that’s for sure. yay. I just want to get drunk. Alright, I think that’s enough for one night. I am off to bed so I can manage an early morning. Joy.
May 29

Oh well hello there dearest persons.

It is I, your cat lover, Ball.

Not much to report on. Just that hockey is over but fear not, soccer takes the reins and it’s yet another 6.15am start in the morning to play a quick match against Women’s. Oh the joys of college sport. At least I’m keeping in shape and mixing with the other girls. I’ll admit though, was getting sick of the senior girls in hockey. Very clicky bunch. Tomorrow night should be interesting, I wonder who has to prosecute me. I have Tori and I literally have nothing on her. She hasn’t done anything! Anyway.

So I was out at dinner the other night with mum at some incredible Japanese restaurant in Newtown (Hikaru) and I’m merrily, talking away with Deb when some guys walk in. Completely disregarded two of the three, one of them just caught my eye and I couldn’t help but wonder why he seemed so familiar. I clearly had never seen him/ been introduced to him before, so who on earth was he? Anyway, went home and had a quick facebook stalk, not really knowing where to begin. I knew he wasn’t a random so I tried going through Johns’men even though the other two guys weren’t from Johns. So I found a similarity but came to the conclusion that it wasn’t him because I had convinced myself that I no longer remember what this guy looked like (despite me thinking I had seen him before, there was definitely a recognition there). It was one of those moments when you just check out some guy that you think is pretty good looking and you think “ah nah, well I’ll never see him again, but he’s nice to look at anyway”. So come Wednesday, I’m out and ran into Abby and this guy… THIS GUY, suddenly appears and next thing I know, Abby introduces him to me. Carrying on, she leaves and it’s the two of us talking and I get completely nervous and back out. I had to tell her about what had happened and how much I was smitten for this guy. Completely infatuated (how he attains the nickname from Alex, Fatty). So I keep seeing him walking past the whole night and we catch each other’s eyes and it’s all well cute. I end up talking to him a couple times more but me, being too nervous and him too shy end up not doing anything. Which is nice for a change, in hindsight. Regardless, he has most definitely forgotten about me and I should do the same. Well, I sort of have. Thatwastwo weeks ago now and I am thoroughly content in my single life. I have a thousand and one other things to be worrying about than some guy who I’ll probably never see again considering I had never seen him before anyway. Though, heisa Johnnies boy so the chances are high. I keep banning myself from there though so they’re definitely slimming down. Woo message… oh. Mum.

So there’s my (late) rant on Fatty. Although, I don’t think I’m all that infatuated anymore, as I said, it has been two weeks now. Hmm, I hope I make it out tomorrow night. Might bump into him at the Gross. Naht. I probably won’t even make it out. Even if I did, he might not be out and I’d be looking for him and it would only end in tears. So. Let’s say, let’s see where the night takes me! Not looking for any hookups, that’s for sure. yay. I just want to get drunk.

Alright, I think that’s enough for one night. I am off to bed so I can manage an early morning. Joy.

sleep. overflow of thoughts. This doesn’t help one bit. This just sucks.

May 5
lack of
May 3

was the question posed to me by my work colleague and friend. my response? I guess no one likes me.  how is one even meant to respond to that?

Apr 21
So why don’t you have a boyfriend?

alexandrachilde: … until I repose and induce my mind with unconvincing scenes of events that will cease to ever exist. 

Apr 20

I don’t know if I still have feelings for him. It’s been well over two years and I still yearn for what we had. I dare to feel like this but they’re there and all I want is to attain what was there again.

Apr 13
Is this still meant to happen?